How To Waste Time

When I procrastinate, I procrastinate hard. I am currently the rising queen of procrastination. Here's how I do it:

1. Buzzfeed Quizzes
When in doubt, Buzzfeed out. Yeah, I know thats cheesy and inevitably not a thing but whatever, okay? I'm a dork. Buzzfeed quizzes are fun and my favorite are the "Can We Guess Your Age" quizzes because I always get like 17-24 and I'm 14 lol. I'm kinda obsessed with Buzzfeed.

2. Youtube
Some youtubers I have been extreme bingeing on are;
Alex and Mia Vlogs, Good Mythical Morning, Jenna Marbles, Trisha Paytas, Freelee the Banana Girl and BuzzfeedVideo (i promise they're not sponsoring haha).

3.Self-grooming
When I'm super bored I randomly shave my legs and paint my nails. Sounds super weird but takes up a good 20-30 minutes.

4. Netflix
Finding new TV shows is great. Lately I've been watching Scandal, American Horror Story, and Pretty Little Liars. I also have been watching old Audrey Hepburn and Marilyn Monroe films, along with the Disney "Classics" Teen Beach Movie, High School Musical and Camp Rock.

5. Your cable's On-Demand service
Watch entire seasons of TV Shows on sources other than Netflix. I watch MasterChef, Astronaut's Wives Club, Devious Maids, and Fresh Off the Boat.

Paper Towns Review

This post is a bit late but I was fortunate enough to go see the film Paper Towns friday with some friends. If you haven't heard of Paper Towns it was originally a book written by John Green. Some of the things in Paper Towns have been altered during production. Some great changes include not having the SeaWorld scene which would have given unnecessary advertisement to the animal-exploiting theme park. However, they did cut out some of the most famous quotes from the book.
I speak for all teenage girls when I say Ansel Elgort's appearance was perfection. And I do love dragons ;). I do wish he would have played Margo's ex-boyfriend, running bare-bottom out of the house but this will do. I rate the movie 4/5. The Fault in Our Stars was much more tear-jerking. Look forward to Looking For Alaska next summer if John Green wishes to keep this trend going.

I Challenge You

Hey, guys!
So this week, I am challenging you to come up with 10 things you like about yourself. These things can be physical or mental. Here are my 10 things:

1. Eyelashes
2. Plump Lips
3. Height
4. Creativity
5. Humor
6. Writing Skills
7. Bubbly Personality
8. Baking Skills
9. Nail-painting Skills
10. Ability to Change My Voice

Losing Weight

Lately, I  have not been motivated to workout at all. Every time I do workout I just eat the calories I burned and then some. I don't want to be trapped in this body forever but I just can't seem to be motivated to get off my ass. The things that used to motivate me don't anymore and I find myself being discouraged even when the scale reveals a lesser number than before. Because to me a couple pounds isn't good enough. It's still not how little I want to be in the long run. I eat from a limited amount of food groups now that I'm vegan and I find myself always going to bread when I should be going to vegetables. I just need someone to start a journey with me. If anyone wants to lose a good bit of weight "the healthy way" and needs some encouragement, please email me at camaracray@gmail.com. Another entry will be posted tomorrow :-)

A Story I've Been Working On

I put some pep in my step, noticing the red pickup truck slowing down on the road beside me.

As I sped up, I crushed twigs under my combat boots. I put my hands into the pockets of my grey hoodie and felt for cigarettes. The truck continued past me as I pulled out the pack from my pocket.

It wasn’t the first time someone thought I was a hooker. I dressed like one, even my makeup looked like one. Sure I covered up more but not much more.

I give little fucks about nature, but I admit that it felt nice out.

I turned on Florida St and walked up the porch steps to Dylan’s door. His preppy, yacht club-going self greeted me with a smile,

“Hey” he gleamed.

 I tried to smile back but I suppose it wasn’t so convincing because he frowned back.

“Is it an eating day?” he asked, knowing of my binge-purge-starve cycle.

“Nah,” I responded.

“Figures, what brings you to mi casa?” he asked.

He was an odd character, I certainly wasn’t regretting any big decisions I was about to make.

He sat a bowl of popcorn down in front of me.

“Dylan, seriously?!” I shook my head.

“Sara…”

“No. You know what? I wish I could be the girl you need me to be. The girl who is the perfect ‘lady in the streets and freak in the sheets’ that you can show off to your family. Darling, the truth is I like pop with emo influences and smoking marijuana. And I will never be good enough for your mother.”

He stood shocked, he seemed as if he might cry.

I knew I was way overreacting. I needed some excuse to get out of this before he fell too hard.

“Dylan, I don’t care about you.”

Complete fucking bullshit.

He was all I cared about besides myself; not my family, not school, not work.

“And I do not love you.”

But still he wasn’t good enough.

“You need to find someone else.”

No one ever was.

I grabbed a beer from the fridge and made my way out the door.

Once I was far enough that he couldn’t hear, I threw the bottle at the ground and screamed, watching it shatter. A metaphor for my heart.

The sun was down and I had no longer had anyone to protect me.

Not that I really did before.

                                                                 Xoxo

Once I entered downtown, I knew which streets to avoid. I did not need any more men trying to rent out my body for the night. It’s so idiotic that I do all this self-damaging shit but refuse to let someone else hurt me. I am a walking hypocrite.

I hurried through the dark night, past empty stores. Many of them had hoboes sleeping outside of them. I was homeless, but I would never be caught sleeping on the sidewalk. I may have disowned my family but it doesn’t change my last name. I will always be too good for cold concrete.

The only occupied shop I saw, for a whole two blocks, was being swept by a guy that appeared to be a few years older than me.

“Hey! Somebody help me!” I shouted, frantic.

I should’ve been a Hollywood star for that performance. Nailed it.

He rushed to the door and opened it. He had brown eyes and brown curly hair with the sides cut low. He was wearing a white shirt and white, icing-stained apron. His pants were simple black slacks. I guessed that he was Hispanic.

And of course,

I was attracted to him.

Sigh.

He put his arm around me, “What’s wrong?” he asked, concerned, sheltering me.

“Honestly, nothing. I just really needed to get in here. You shouldn’t be so trusting. I could’ve robbed you,” I replied, back to my neutral tone.

He looked so hurt even though he barely even knew me. Why did he care about a betrayal from a stranger?

“You still can,” he smirked. Now he was on my level.

I liked this kid.

“So what do you want? Food? Your friend leave the club with some guy, so now you’re all alone?”

I wish. But then again do I?

“I may look ready for a night of partying, but I actually just dress this way.”

He looked apologetic. Oh, come on!

“Don’t sweat it. I could do without food, but if I could crash on your couch for the night that would be chill.”

Always taking chances, Sara.

“You could crash in my spare for a while if you can make $500 rent.” He seemed serious.

“I would, but I don’t want you to get too attached,” I smirked,

He smiled at me. As if we were just old friends. As if he were already too attached.

**Should I post more?** I may not have the proper copyrights but I will sue if anyone publishes this work as their own with the attempt to make profit. 

Upcoming Posts

I want you guys to anticipate my posts so here's whats to come:
-Paper Towns Review
-Vegan Recipes
-One day i will post my to-do list for that day
-News Reaction (React to current events)
-How to Waste Time
-Pretty Little Liars Reaction or Theory
-Rant(s)
-How To('s)
-I Challenge You
-Favorite Youtubers
-AND MORE!!

I also want you guys to comment things you want to see and I promise to try and post it!

Generic Q&A

What is your favorite beverage?

Lemonade, but I very rarely drink it.

What job makes you happy?

Anything that involves traveling and natural beauties.

What state do you live in?

Florida.

What's your middle name?

Victoria.

What's your nickname?

Camomo or Mara but I prefer my actual name.

How old are you?

Fourteen.

What does you name mean?

Princess.

What is your most prized possession?

My pride.

Who are five people who have influenced you?

Avery- Be yourself because it's better for people to like you for who you really are than for who you pretend to be.

Aastha- Hardwork and never giving up pay off.

Alexis Ren- Chase your dreams and live life how you want to because satisfying yourself is more important than satisfying everyone else.

My Mother- Just because something not ideal happens to you, doesn't mean you have to be held back,

Oprah- Big things come in small packages and great things can come from awful ones.

What are five things that make you happy?

Bright skies with even brighter clouds, long hugs, comforting smells, kind puppies and knowing that hardwork didn't go unnoticed.

Who is your favorite person in the whole world?

My paternal-grandfather, although I love all of my grandparents that are actively apart of my life very much.  

That's all folks.